Lif3 of aN artIsT- BaldoviN

2009-04-14T00:54:00.002+08:00

M back here.. =]

Well 2 days have went by? Still cannot get over the matter =( Everywhere i go, juz so much memories of it, walking down e aisle, streets and rivers... *sigh*

Went to Zirca ytd night due to some1, though my stomach wasn't feeling very good. Suddenly out of no where, it was cramp! And upon reaching into the place... I was scolded by him... come club dun dance.. come for what.. =/ Well wat to do, my stomach wasn't that well, hardly can I walk, but still manage to go in..
and sat for awhile to let it recover.. Dun dare touch alcohol ytd night, took fruit punch instead.. wanted to stay ON.. but some1 juz can't be bothered with me, thus leaving e club with a heavy heart. =(

Today at work, not much customers and stuff.. plus due to my hand injury, let my colleague did pizza station instead, i went to other station. hand still kinda hurt pretty bad.. but no choice, brought it upon myselfi guess. sigh

Anyway gotta go.. =] Hmm to that some1 if u r reading this... Well i still misses u alot though im cold on e outside.. =( I also dunno wat to do.. deep inside me is a turmoil to me.. nitez

2009-04-12T15:04:00.002+08:00

Mr Bloggie, M back here to update... hmm LONG LONG TIME nvr UPDATE SIA!! A month plus.. sorry ppl who r reading this blog..=( Neglected this blog for a long long time..

Anyway Yup, a change in song.. guess people who hang out ard me recently will know what really happen and well this name was given to me by some1 special..=( some1 that i have been trying to be with for past 1 month, no matter how hard i try, things is juz not progressing.. I know u r trying to forget some1 which u have been trying hard to let go but u did not... But is true that a relationship takes 2 hands to clap.. =( So guess i gotta let it go some how no matter how much i m unwilling to. bcoz he has alrdy let it go.. =( Cruel as it may be but guess things have come to this stage and for him to make a decision. Wondering why on his mind, he have a feeling that he has mistreated me.. but on my side.. he nvr did it.. when together, i was happy.. =] Nvr once sad or being felt let down.. All e surprised one can give, Was touched by all e actions. Being meticulous and sweet, caring for everything.
Bought me earsticks when i nvr say much things abt it. Pick me up from my workplace when i knock off. OR when free during my break time, he will be down. When i scald my hand by e pizza.. some1 being so uptight and insisted that i see a doctor no matter how much i refuse.. in e end bought a burnt lotion for me.. All these was really nice and sweet of this person.. =( Last of all WHY E sudden PERFUME?!?!?! And is my favourite perfume. A surprise that i nvr expected it at all.. =( I m really happy for things that this person has done. I will juz wait for u no matter how long it will takes.. =( Fallen for u too much. ='( Juz wan me to let go so that i will feel better? is juZ too HARD! Fancy u cannot even let go of it and how can I even do it? I will juz wait no matter how long it takes.. i know deep in ur heart some1 is still embedded deep inside.. juz gotta wait.

Enuff of sad stuff ba.. =( So far attachment for me has been alright. Juz that my hand gt scalded pretty bad by e pizza.. =( painful and hot. 3 blistter popping out which some has saw.. VRY BIG.. =x and ER XIN! LOLx.

Good Friday, I went to visit my mum's grave once again.. Somehow i dunno why memories flashback again.. 3 yrs since she was gone, and i have not let go of it.. i cried again. Sigh..

Suddenly juz dunno wat to write...=( Hope things do get better.

2009-02-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

Well m back here again.. once again u know wat kinda post m gonna post..=/ Well e standard emo-ish post..

Hmm juz dunno why ba.. today i juz felt so dwn and low plus rather emo-ish...

Firtsly.. at work is juz so stress with my italian chef barking around and making his pressence known.. which juz pisses people off actually. Things that he can do his own.. but nvr wanna do.. all along is juz bossing people around.. GRR!!!

Next issue well.. guess is time i have to say, i juz wanna give up hope on these grp already.. No point to keep trying to hold on to things that juz will not be united.. no matter how much u tried.. it juz keep breaking.. All leading their own personal lives.. and stuff, one tat juz DUN bother REPLYing My SMS.., one that goes into e clubbing scene, e other, busy working and earning money, which really not much time plus gt his own friends.. e rest, nothing much to comment on.. except these main people... So well i decided to juz give up on this group bcoz no point all of them is leading their own lives.. when to me some are vry important people to me... =( My only group of friends that juz goes down to the drain after one yr of close friendship... and it just breaks off.. Maybe is my fault? *m really wondering*

Lastly, well this kinda dunno whether it concerns u actually, but i juz wanna spend alot of my time with u..sacrificing some of my time to be with u.. but on one hand a fear that makes u feel irritated and stuff that im very sticky.. and intruding into ur personal life... somehow though u gave me all ur assurance, but i still feel insecured.. and so many thigns i juz wanna tell u, however i do not know how to put it into words.. thus can only do it in actions... and at times there are things i juz meant in opposite meaning..

do not really know wat to write... bcoz too many thoughts are on my mind.. but for sure one thing is the group is gonna break... NiteZ

2009-02-02T17:05:00.004+08:00

OK... woot 1 month since i blog already..=x this time i blog is an update to my health bcoz i am spammed by smses asking how am I.. =] so to save my sms, here's an update ba...

Well since december, i have been having gastric.. which actually leads to diarrhoea.. and decided to see e doctor. Thus after like 1 mth which it nvr recover, thus seeing another doctor till january. But after recovering from my gastirc, i realise that there's still one problem that actually persist which is blood in stool. I was wondering why so decided to go seek doctor once more, thus refered to specialist..
so now e prob which is i haVe piles.. thats why it causes bleed but for more details as in why they ask me go for colonoscopy bcoz my piles are juz too small to cause bleeding... =/

So well TODAY is e day i went for colonoscopy and of all places, is at NCC, National Cancer Centre. =( why is due to e fact that it brings back memory of me and my mum when i brought her there for her checkup and stuff few years back. Looking at e cancer patients there i juz felt so sad. Reminding myself of my mum e way she suffered yrs back.. sigh. E painful and pale look that they carry, weak. *sob*
Ok.. not sidetrack.. so i was told to change into e so called gown there..and wait.. When it was my turn, was happy yet scared.. E thing is that when e tube went in, it was alright.. is pretty painless BUT just as i thought i can relax and juz watch on e screen in my intestine. TO MY ASTONISHMENT, when e thing went DEEPER is JUZ SO PAINFUl...that i scream in pain and nearly cried..=(
So when all was done.. was kinda relief actually...

But lets just say before colonoscopy u need to do this thing called BOWLE preparation and is like gosh u can only eat porridge for whole day..etc and when u take medication, it cramped up ur whole intestine..=/

So when all things out.. result is i may have rectum infection... which doc gives me antibiotic.. which last 2 weeks.. =( and den test result...etc also need wait 2 weeks... so well so far i also dunno wats wrong... but lets juz wait and see for result... =)

Today a pretty happy day for me la.. at home rest eat, slp.. =D miss those days alot.. and evening of course went out with my 2 little bro to eat and chit chat.. =) miss those days actually.. gRR.. i wanna be FREE again..=(
Now gtg rest le.. tml workinG...=/

2009-01-08T08:58:00.005+08:00

What a day today..=( and maybe a yr to begin with also.. =/ Getting myself hurt at e start of the year? hMM.. is YR 2009 not 2007 Getting myself hurt at e start of the year is not going to affect me!! *i Hope so* =x

Anyway wat happen was that tdy EARLY MORNING.. i receive a news.. sigh affected me badly.. =/ a 1 week stuff..and wat a ending..=( initially did not wanna fall into that pool and in e end.. i still fell into the pool.. liking a bi is always so hurting when u already know e ending...yet u still wanna plunge into e pool.. Forever a silly dolphine... is true that letting go is e best way coz u still like the person but is always EASIER said than DONE! U wan e person to be happy BuT u urself is being hurt, is it fair? Truth is nothing is fair but what can we do? I wanted to avoid the call but is just so hard.. i have to pick up and ans e phone as if nothing has happen but deep down a bleeding heart. In my mind, kinda lots of things just flash pass, and me with my favourite Place.. YET also e most hurtful place always.. since YR 07 but yr 08 have always avoided e place for some reason i try to be happy and thus able to let go of it.. BUT NOW IS BACK..=( I wonder why is fate always like this.. *sigh*
I know my voice is cold to u.. however i have no choice =( I do not wish to do that but thats me. I am really Sorry but this blog song is to u.

OK!! Now is Update of work stuffs. Still as usual i m still working and hoping to complete my attachment asap..=( bcoz i cannot stand e outlet chef (xiao bai) he's super irritating.. always disturb me.. i still remember me and e other trainee.. comparing both our rank.. we are trainee but e thing is when e other trainee on MC, xiao bai dun grumble so much whereas for me, he grumble like nobody business, saying i fake my illness..etc when all my colleagues know i have not recover.. what a jerk! However i will not let him climb over my head!!! I m juz a trainee not a full time staff for goodness sake, and well i will stand up for myself.. =) meanwhile today i dunno wat to do.. juz coloured my hair recently, wanna tan but unable..=( sian maybe shop for new yr clothes? argH CNY is juz round the corner..=( and for sure my CNY is burn off at work. =( sob sob

Thats all i gotta say, gastric is slowly acting up.. better go grab my breakfast

back to update whole day event... =x kinda bo liao but well.. somehow i m still trying to get over something.. affected me that i juz dun feel like going out and whole day was juz at home..=( den only went out to have supper with a friend, and den home again... well but one achievement... =D i clean up my table today.. after mths and mths of piling manZ!!! GOSH!! now table is alot neater..=D

2008-12-19T13:54:00.002+08:00

WOO HOO!! m back to update my blog...

Can uz say... last 2 weeks of my work really sux like hell and creepy manZ!! First is my Exec Chef... next is my outlet chef... REALLLY pissed with that 2 ITALIANOS!!

First abt the exec chef.. his expectation is so HIGH LOR!!! wat more u expect on a trainee lor... open a pizza dough so perfect that have no holeS??

Next is e STUPID NEW chef which is an italian oso...=.= come here dun do any work.. juz PSP and smoke, eat and drink.. wtf...leave all e job to me.. and u expect a kitchen to be one man show? is all IMPOSSIBLE LOR!!!
PLUS the management in this company sux la...

First of all... ask u this questions... An Exec Chef only is IN CHARGE of kitchen operations... right? so in any case... why does he have right to meddle and oso fire ppl frm e service side... so wat is an operation manager for? From what we all know... unless u are an F&B manager...i gt nth to say.. but well tat incident i mention..ALWAYS HAPPEN!! BIG problem manz..=.=

OK enough of work issues...
Somehow i just need to get used to working life... =( i missed out so MUCH fun after working manz.. sob sob... no club no tanning, no beach life... all those life me wan? not referin to aj clubs... but well a normal guy life... e life tat me wan... coz i m juz happy to be of scene for so long.. =D thx to some ppl tat got me out of it... like Vid...=D thank thank u...=)

I shall just tolerate all these and enjoy all this after evrything... meanwhile juz focus on earning money ba..=( *sob sob*

And for e past 1 week i m juz having problem with my gastric tat i took an MC last sat but end up ah... e medication i ate like help gastric and me eating well.. but my diarrhoea does not goes awy.. :( have been running to toilet after evry meal... and waking up in e middle of e night to juz visit e loo... sigh... that just SUX... and hope i can recover soon... =/

2008-12-05T00:19:00.002+08:00

Have been contemplating should i blog today... and guess i have no choice but once again i shall juz pen my thoughts dwn here... Hopefully some1 will be reading this ba...

Honestly 1 week without ur morning call, and stuffs, u being with me, i m not used to this wierd feeling, some how i do miss u... :( ask me why i wanna end this with u? E ans is actually lies within myself... ur guts is actually right that things i m hiding... not bcoz i have fallen for some1 but i have fear in myself that i m not a good bf afterall... somethings do happen and stuff... and once being pressurized, i tend to end it.. escaping from the problem..

It still does not get over me after so many years.. deep dwn, there's juz a scar left by some1 that i juz lost so much so much things... that i m sry to hurt u.. i guess is not only u, i have hurt... sry to the sky, to hhog, to waterdragon? this 3 DAMN good ppl i have came across this yr..

For work.. m juz getting too STRESSED.. =( somehow i wanna tell u abt my work, but i have lost e person, no one to pick me up, to go for dinner? to talk abt alot of things... silly boi i m forever is.. and a jerk after so many scolding and nagging by some1... till a certain point i dun dare to approach u at times coz this person, i m afraid will be pissed with me coz u knew me too long and juz give up hope on me... and thus i juz lost everything.. i dun wan all these to happen again...=(

Lack of sleep this week... really gotta catch some rest and juz let things be e way it is ba... falling sick myself.. sigh but who cares... juz felt like crying somehow... while writing this blog.. but that particular person will not believe oso... but i do miss u... niteZ dolphinE

2008-11-26T23:14:00.003+08:00

Have not been updating this blog ever since i really plunge back into e working society... juz too busy working and it drains off lots my energy..=/
Juz sort of realise some things ba.. maybe im not cut to be a bf material, nor a kor, nor a good frd... m juz nobody in this world, doing normal things to survive and compete with e rest of e homosapiens..

Anyway hmm i have this thought bcoz i felt that even for a simple thing like gym.. is juz so hard ba.. =( no one like to go gym with me... well fine then.. for those who r reading, is orite.. u guys no need to do something abt it... juz leave it.. I will do all these activities alone.. fine wif it.. ='[ tanning, gymming...etc since no one likes to be with me afterall.. an irritating and whinning guy ba.. who likes rite? =/

On off days now... devote all my time to my cliques once again ba.. =] dun ask me why but well though weekly is doing same things.. but juz dun get bored..LOLX

On the other hand.. =/another thing i will do is to sleep ba.. somehow i juz drifted awy wif some ppl recently..=x maybe im thinking too much or is it something again tat piss ppl or make ppl irritated? I gt no idea, for now..is juz sloggin myself all e way, no life, no fun.. juz pure work...=[

Waiting for my pay day, need to clear of bills and get some personal stuff manZ.. have not had my PAY for like 1 yr MANZ. and during this period oso must save for rainy days... days to be broke is really SAD man...
well gotta go bed le... =] Nitez

2008-11-04T16:24:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. have been working for 3 days already...=/ so far still able to manage my stuff.. today dunno why, hmm kinda abit lost ba.. perhaps coz e exec chef was ard.. pushing and stuff.. which I DUN LIKE LOR!! ANG MOR!! gRR... other than that everything was pretty good..

Slowly picking up all e menu items... and learning e complimentary items oso.. =] Den cuppage this outlet.. hmm.. gt another trainee oso.. =) so not so bad.. but perhaps for me.. is competitive if not is i fast learner ba.. i wanna quickly master the things here...=D

Big problem.. perhaps is stand too LONG!! WAH!! LEGS at e end of the day really can kill.. =( damn painful... and nua lor.. tml need work morning shift... =X dun even know gt enuff time to slp and rest lor.. reach home daily like ard 12... ):
for now.. slack ard.. den hmm starting work at 6pm.. =(

Muz have e motivation to work manZ... dun wanna waste more time le... juz get it over and be done.. and YIPEE!!!

2008-11-01T00:50:00.002+08:00

Hmm... MOTIVATION and DETERMINATION... =x Do i have that manz... =(
Why i talk abt it... bcoz i HAVE finally found my attachment after dragging so long ba... suppose to graduate le.. end up cannot bcoz of this stupid thing... =/ so me must GANBATTE!

For people who are curious where i will be working... here it is
- Cuppage Terrace; Pasta Fresca

this outlet gt 4, but for now starting work.. so will be working at cuppage here... hope will not switch outlet.. which seems impossible ba.. haha.
And worst thing is.. i will be working split shift sia.. =( sob sob.. most irritating shift... and hate it most.. but the chef nvr tell me at all.. and me being lost and silly.. oso nvr ask.. so bo bian..need REN!!! :(

Ok... guess tdy is my LAST day to really go crazy wif friends.. haha.. which i really did.. coz m so gonna miss them badly.. =( But well... i know that be it im busy or wat i will always be their frds.. coz they are e best.. =D Gotta go le.. niteZ to U... =)

The Dolphine is goin off le.. =] see ya when m free..

2008-10-25T02:22:00.004+08:00

Juz came back home after another crazy night wif my clique... and tdy main activity was MOVIES! hahahZ... High School Musical 3. Well alot of people were pretty excited about this show i believed.. though i really wonder why some of them dislike high school musical.. =/

BUT anyway... my reviews of this Final Show? hahaz... some part of it is juz pretty corny? dunno if u guys agree wif me ba.. and overall i find it nice la.. =] the love story between Gabriella and Troy.. hmm.. find it pretty sweet ba..
talking about it, is it rubbing salt into a wound? =/ haiZ.. really wish i can find someone like this manz... =( juz too hard...

Then talking about future.. hmM... Alot of decisions making manz.. sacrifcing and stuffs.. err dun wanna be a spoiler for this.. so go watch e show to find out more.. =]

Oh.. and talking about 1 character... i find that she improves? Sharpay.. ahahZ e PINK LADY, finally potray her as a mature character.. =] well done..

LOL.. find this post pretty crappy bcoz, my mind is vry mindset now.. LOLx so kinda vry messy thoughts... NiteZ

2008-10-22T21:43:00.004+08:00

Have not been updating recently, but lots have happen.. Do not really know where to start exactly.
Regulars who have been visting my blog know when i will update my blog. Including the music.. =] The music will always be updated to compel with my moods and feelings. Past few days thought of changing the song.. but imeem seems to have a problem, so well.. unable. =/

But anyway hmm, am i feeling low again? U guys maybe wondering ba. Guess u are right, but i dunno wats quite wrong with me.. Juz felt that i gotta go my own way.. juz like wat the lyrics suggest.. Too much things that i have been unable to let go and stuffs. Still out trying to search wat i want? I really just don't understand lots of things. Sigh, failure isn't it?

Some how through this yrs, 19 yrs old finally? Actually dun wanna mention it but guess is juz my thoughts and my blog afterall... =x Kinda disappointing during my bday period.. Things juz dun go smoothly at all.. =( Imagine being hurt time and again, how will u feel? All these thoughts are suppose to be pen down in here last month but i did not.. as u know i m always bottling up my feelings till i explode.. = [

However sometimes i gotta thank the friends around me.. they have all along been trying hard to change me, but none really voice out except for 1.. without you, i wouldn't wake up at all.. Guess sometimes juz me and my negligence in lots of stuffs?
For past months, i have been trying hard to be myself, e original me that was simple minded and enjoy every small things. Have mature during these period also. Hmm. Sometimes still wanna apologise to some ppl that m childish as inside there's some things i wanna let go but i do not know who to turn to or to release out. Some how or another one way for me to release it ba.. = ]

Anyway to the group.. Going by alphabetical order ba.. =]

Alvin aka Erzhu: There's always one thing i wanna thank you which i do not know have i thank you verbally? Thanks for being there during my sad moments. Was not expecting you actually, kinda shock but still thank alot =]

David aka the Blue Smurf: For the PAST many many months, thank you for everything that u have been doing ba... and u muz stand up ok? Alot of times i know my problems is nothing compared to you, and do not know how are u feeling about lots of stuff so all i can is just be there like e whole group ba.

Dhaslie aka Dratinl: Dun really know wat to say to u.. ROFL! but enjoy every moments u have =] not everyone is as fortunate as u ba... and good luck for u 'O's. GANBATTE!

Henry aka Bear: for a period, thanks for giving me advise =] or i would have really given up on some stuffs and some prob u facing, no matter wat believe that god does miracles. It does happen many times.. good luck

Ivan aka Van: To this little bro... hmm many many things i have shared with u.. and e period that you have always been with me. Without you, would not have come this far.. know u for quite long le..? Haha.. So much things that wanna tell u.. but dunno from and where to start.. Good luck for ur A lvls.. =] miss hanging out wif u ba..

Shude aka Whale: This whale ah.. hmm hmm.. good luck for ur A levels.. =] and do well wor.. if not is really wasting time and dun game so much.. =]

Steve aka DaZhu: My BUDDY!! hahaZ. Treasure what you have and do something in ur life ba.. =] dun idle it just like tat, screwed up once... so cannot to afford to have another screw up wor? ok? hugS

Lastly, hmm.. ARGH!! juz finish a dota match.. DAMN PEK CEK!! now mood damn spoil... =/ but life go on.. Little dolphin need move on.. u can do it ba.. = [ many ppl have e faith and trust in u... GANBATTE!

2008-09-27T12:14:00.002+08:00

LONG LONG time since i last blog... hmmm
Usually when i blog is at night... but today i dunno why.. i m blogging in e day time.. =/

once again e standard things ba.. when im feeling low then i will blog.. but well.. sigh dun really know ba..

My group of friends.. hmm.. once again another dispute came out. This time out of like concern which end up to be a dispute.. I really dun wanna bother about such stuff anymore... Trying to be nice.. end up.. things juz ARGH!!....

NVM!! I dun wanna bother abt such person in future... so nice for asking this and stuff, end up is quarrelling. Sometimes i myself wonder, m i being nice or juz being KPO..can..=.= and TO TAT some1 who MAY read this... sometimes i wonder.. who im to U.. if im juz any other ppl.. forget it..ok? I rather not enter ur life... and juz be ur friend...not some1 special.

On the other hand.. another headache ba... which is the little babe tat i have... =( suddenly babe start thinking alot of things which actually shock me.. and juz ytd conversation i realise tat it was actually my problem tat i was not attentive..etc but after this morning of thinking and stuff.. i realise deep dwn is not really me is not ready.. is more of e other party ba...still being confuse... but i promise to love this babe and take care tat babe..hehe.. hugS and i jhave sorted out all my thoughts.. WOO HOO!! Feel so relieve now...

For now.. i shall go watch some shows..and maybe gaming.. hehe...=D

2008-08-25T16:52:00.004+08:00

Mr Bloggie.. =D m back today updating my lifE again... hmm
Started work on fri, 22 aug. Well the job is kinda fun in some ways ba... well for my roles, dun really to promote but juz stationed at the counter wif my own lappie and doin some admin work... pretty slack but working hours.. wooSh!! It is during the wee wee wEE hourS manZ.. =/

dWn for wor on weekends and well... due to that me and dhas de weekend is gone juz like this...
Fri- 7pm- 3am
Sat- 8pm- 4am
weLL... cannnot escape afterall coz.. we need money and thats how work life is.. Things u needa sacrifce always... =(

Been sick for 1 whole week with my stupid cough.. =/ but well wat can i do? No medication at home and stuff coz of dad la...-.- throw away all my medications. enD up now sick le.. nth to eat, cannot recover. =(

On sat, kinda happy ba.. coz in a way. second time taking neoprints, ahahaZ (sound so sua gu) but well is my group of buddies tat we have been hanging out for almost a yr ba... isn't that great mah? =) will upload some pics..

thiS pic.. hmm nothing much nice.. maybe yesH! thE bubbles.. LOL

kindA like this pic lotS.. hahaz my buddy steve wif his Shermie Kisses~

uh huh~ thiS my fave pic.. LOL. My trademark smile.. =D

hmm.. this pic.. me look so gaL~ gosH but best is ivaN.. LoL, look like a fox..
but henry eyes is like gone due to e decor of it.. =(

weLL... so thats all about it ba~

hmM now m really thinking about some stuff.. =( big day coming for me, but still no plans, sigH wat to do? This yr is a vry special year for me, not bcoz im turning 19 but bcoz well my chinese bday and english bday falls on e same day.. =) a long awaited day.. waiting for these 2 days to clash.. but sad is bcoz no bday plans, it falls on a thursday and fri, sat i m working..=( dunno how to celebrate it at all... buddy in taiwan, friends working... what shall i do~ =(
No one special to celebrate wif me too.. sigH.. guess is my fault afterall...

lovE lif3 really sux this yr for me.. perhaps is not bad.. but due to my playfulness, i destroy 2 good chances which will nvr return... i thinK thats all for now ba..

sianZ rotting at home now...=(

2008-08-14T15:00:00.002+08:00

Mr Bloggie.. hmm im back to update u..(: hmm time really flies... haiz.. 3 more weeks and im turning 19.. looking back for e past 1 yr.. since i gt e first freedom key of being 18, everything juz sux.. =(

Why i say for e past one yr..it kinda sux is bcoz things i have went through ba.. =/ thinking and looking back, have i successfully completed my things? nope i nvr.. juz everythings seems to fail and stuff.. haiz... Perhaps only thing i have succeeded is my circle life.. has been quieten dwn alot i guess... No lif3...etc.. isn't it that great, from so aspect, it is great, but from some it isn't... sigh.. Circle of friends, change, things change, lifestyle change.. really dunno what I am doing..

School got so much problem, suppose to graduate this year.. end up.. wat happen? Screwed up my own studies...
Lifestyle.. hmm last yr clubber, party..etc but this year, stop all those stuff.. so wat if there's club and stuff.. in the end there's nth else but drink and be merry..
Friends.. This i really got no comments, sigh.. in a way or another, my deadline is near, have i done things tat i am suppose to or to them, nth has happen? Well.. i do not know..

There are lots of things in my mind which i wanna get it off, but i cannot at all. No one i can talk to and stuff, even if yes.. people are listening, but in the end, they juz dun seems to understand the thoughts, and to them, stubborness thats in me and thus no one to lend a listening ear. I know there are ppl wants to lend a ear, but i dun wan juz any ABC to come and juz listen and stuff.. to me, they are juz strangers and nth else...

Love Lif3- hmm lonely i guess.. Miss out lots of good persons afterall... enough of flirting and wan start, yet there's these things that juz seems to be hurting me or maybe scaring me off.. =/
Take for example, 2 person wayback, whom i treated nicely and stuff, yet bcoz of some stuff, they juz left like that, then suddenly, now they are back, treating u nicely and stuff..

I mean whats the point when u wanna let some1 nice go and yet AFTER whatevr THINGS they have been THROUGH, THEY COME BACK!!

I really do not know what to do le.. juz hope my bday this yr is a nice and memorable (HAPPY) one!!

2008-07-29T00:10:00.002+08:00

whaT is it like to have a happy family? does any1 have the answer to that question?
next is whaT is a complete family?

for me.. all i can say is clueless... i do not know how to answer these questions at all..
waS it a mistakE to let her enter our house? was it another mistake a child was born?
Why does my dad wanna marry her? is it a big mistake?? I really feel so stress over it..

Juz as when i tot i will have peacE in the family when suddenly another quarrel broke out.
do not exactly know wat happen.. few days back.. a lawyer letter came frm SP services and me and dad checked the letter.. there was an outstanding sum of 3K+ of bills...out of no where.. and after we check... it was actually the china lady's rented apartment.. -.-" coz for my hse de bills..mostly all cleared le.. so end up.. gt this money issue that came back so suddenly...=(

theN frm the conversation i heard frm dad over the phone when they quarreling... was one issue tat on sat.. tat china lady went for her friends bday party and end up was aabt 1am when she call my dad to pick her up.. when my dad is working.. end up dunnO wat happen la.. =(
dun even know wat happen la..haiZ

onlY know dad ytd say if that china lady were to bring any guy home... i will be authourised to kick the 2 person out.. and well.. im like sandwiched in the middle.. dunnO wat to do.. wat abt the baby bro?
tat lady told me he dun have e same surname as me..but surname is zhang... tat baby bro dun have a father..=( if tats e case.. the baby should not be even be brought to this world.. the child is innocent... if that lady wan that child to have her surname..m not stopping her.. but e thing is half the time she dun even care for her own son...
and now.. i m like in the middle of e 2 adult quarreling... having so much responsibilites at home already.. yet i still gt added loads..=( haiZ.. father lord.. wat can i do?

well now not in e mood to blog... now left abit hanging in the air..=( haiZ.. let it be theN maybe tats my life...

2008-07-23T14:54:00.002+08:00

has beeN one mth again since i last blog.. guess my this blog is the only one i can tok to and at least this blog is willing to listen to me unlike ppl out there who is juz puttin on such a nice image in front of u but at ur back, u dunno wat are they up to..

23/7/2006
thinking back..once again, during this time of the year wat was i doing? I remember vividly that mummy was in her room lying on her bed, me still taking care of her and she can hardly survive anymore. BUT she was strong, dad wasn't around that time.. She waited for my dad to be back and a whole family united before she left us in this world. Dad was away in china or mainland doing some stuff which is some business.. and the personal nurse which came to give her a check up told us that she cannot live for long and asked us to be mentally prepared. Suddenly the thought of her leaving, well i was sad but i dunno why i nvr shed so much tears when she pass on. My mum was a strong lady, after holding on for 4 days, she departed the world on 27/7/2006. Promising her that i will take care of my little brother Brendon.The promise made... ...

23/7/2008
Two years have pass.. and life juz seems more miserable for me as years pass... i do not have an older brother that i play with and talk to when i was young, quarrel and squabble over little things. Now things juz seemed so different. He lead his own and me leading my own life. Can't be bothered by each other and e hatred between us is deep. I really wonder why..
In my mind, too many thoughts le.. why since i was born, no one ever liked me? Was I a jinx? Why no one want me? Now deep in my heart, though i still treat the stranger as an older bro, but i juz can't bring myself to be nice to him anymore.. dunno wat am i doing.. but i know it is wrong but what can i do, his hatred towards me is deep.

For me and my friends, now.. at this stage, i do not have friends anymore, juz leading a world of my own. Even going out with them, there's awkwardness between each other. My buddy steve, i dunno should i continue hanging ard him and with the friends im with. Every Sat i will devote my time to him and towards that group. But guess it has been the wrong move, things i have done, the group juz shun away frm me... activities they had, dun even bother informing me, so why must i continue being thick-skinned hanging around with the bunch..

Was it even a mistake stepping into this circle? Guess it was but i can't get out, coz of my preferences.. and is there anything i can do.. Answer is NO. I have to live on with it no matter how lonely life is. Everyone juz can't be bothered with me. Who can i turn to? NO ONE. ALL guys are JERKS inculding myself i guess.. even when i m sitting dwn to think there's a thought. What is MONOGAMY? and being monogamous in a relationship.. is this all lies or a fairytale?
Why do people flirt and fool ard even when they are attached? Why?

One month plus from now, is my birthday.. I really do not know what to do. No friends to celebrate with perhaps the only person i thought of was last yr whom i called Adeline Yong. Was thinking of juz celebrating wif her only, coz no one would remember my birthday at all. Bet my buddy would not be bothered by my bday at all or dun think he will even remember. So what's the point. Questioning myself time and again... who are my true friends, where are they? Have i lost them all? Perhaps im juz destined to be alone...

To those who are reading.. i know u will surely make some judgement... but all i can say is.. This is my life and dun think no one can change it..

histoRieS...='(

2008-07-01T20:49:00.002+08:00

lookiNg back at my pasT.. welL.. i m juz so tired of e lifE i m having.. caN some1 juz end it off for me? whY have i come to sucH drastic changes in mE? weLL is a gooD qn..=) but me myself is unable to answer. Juz havE beeN hurt by too many people in this world.. tiLL i have become e way i am now...

iN this world, i havE losE all the faith and trust i placed on peoplE until they have make used of me, betrayed, backstabbed me.. waT else can i saY.. enuFF.. rather no onE enter my liFe and juz let me sink deeper into the darknesS tiLL i m dead and burried one daY. I hate this world and y my parents brought me in? sound retarded but weLL.. is juz part of their work... deep dwN i do not have any1 but isn't it good to have no one by ur side, bcoz u duNNo when they will turn ard and stab u.. nO 1 can be trusted at all... =(

anD also putting in so much effort in the hope of getting something, aren't i sillY? knowing that thingS will not turn out well and yet still wannA experiencE it. enuFF of all the things i havE been doIn.. now is best to lead a lonely lifE with no one bothering U.. isn't it great? at leasT you have less worries.

weeKS pasS.. believeD i have heard commentS that i have went silent..etC seemS likE tats e lifE i waN.. bcoz no one really bother except for some.. but wat can i saY.. rather they dun bother bcoz in e end.. all will get tired of it..and will start complaining..
lifE juZ sux... it doesn't goes the way u wan it to go.. is not a bed of roses where u enjoy. sO y does god still hold on hope to this eartH. leT mother naturE destroy it..

preseNt guY u see? weLL maybe a fake guy alrdy, e guy who used to be childish, jovious, cheerful and optimistic... have now went in e wrong direction. e smile that u once see? is now gonE and maybe occasionally u will see it.. =( sad to saY but tearS have been rolling since mths bacK... for those reading... dun bother abt me.. let me juz sinK.. and hopefullY one day my eye juz go blind and sink into e world of darkness..

2008-06-24T22:42:00.003+08:00

Well todaY nth much happen... whOle day was at home, on msn, channel and den editing some stuff on this bloggie.... until likE 2 pluS, went back to bed... though suppose to gym with my didi ivan at 3.. but end up we postpone it to ard 5 plus.. end up we met at 1830.. LOL.. coz some1 was late.

Gymming today i tot can enjoy lor.. but when e moment i reached... WTF?!?!? so CROWDED lor. thuS only did my chest and abS.. and NTH ELSE.. =(
deN went dinner and OH GOSH! REALLY MUZ COMPLAIN!!!

DINNER REALLY SUX BIG TIME!!!!
that time ivan intro me to the western food at Northpoint, well i refuse to try.. and well.. today give it a shot.. but a disappointment. The way they prepare the food, has no standard, no taste and THE THING I HATE MOST.. is HYGIENE!!!!! Evrything use bare hands LOR.. GOSH!!! muz complain to NEA one day.
Then when i eat my chicken.. EEEKKK!! No taste.. no nth lor.. b4 cooking, muz at least season it la.. is not a chinese cuisine u know.. is WESTERN!!! WTH!!!

ok... now lastly.. the main point of today are actually penning down all my thoughts ba.
hmM.. recently have been distancing myself away frm my close friends, and keeping things to myself rather than saying it out coz i dun wanna be a attention seeker..i rather keep all my thoughts to myself and suffer in silence than to lose all my good friends.. coz to them.. the problem i m facing is always the same, is either relationship, and the way i potray myself to him.. is well.. haiZ.. nvm ba..

Mr Bloggie...tell me wat should i do? or should i ask Father God..=(
and whY is there some ppl..who say are bis, yet homophobic? arE they in denial or wat?
weLL i reallY gt nth to say.. but sometimes..i thinK be it whether there's friend or family... it does not matter to me anymorE..
gooD to be alone i gueSS.. whereby i do not have to carE abt ppl thoughts and feelingS, juz leaving in e world of my own, which i have been doIN.. not interested in lots of thingS anymore... be it they are there or whether is it gone... NO MATTERS To Me,
thE Baldovin Toh that u guyS see is no more that joviouS kind i guess... juz a nobody in this world.. wif great friends.. company and companion..

NiteZ daddy god and to my mummY. Ur son is a failure to everything...

2008-06-24T01:05:00.008+08:00

weLL.. i havE watch The UPCOMING and HOT SHOW? gueSS wat it is?
----- Sex & The City -----

HahhAZ.. a seriouSly damn nice shoW you guys musT catch..! I mean it.. really. hMM.. but i believed that u guys will not watch coz of the word SEX!! ahhaHZ.. but well.. initially i had that thought too, however after watching it.. one word to describe it. SUPERB!!! I m not addicted to it and yesH. I m currenlty goin to catch the series itself. =x hahaHZ.

Well i must say this show is not only on sex, but there's fashion, glamour, and the few most important thingS in found in this movie, FRIENSHIP AND LOVE!
this show features on 4 particular ladies. weLL elegance u can say.. and of course PRETTY!

Featuring-- Sarah Jessica Parker as Carrie Bradshaw
Kim Cattrall as Samantha Jones
Kristin Davis as Charlotte York
Cynthia Nixon as Miranda Hobbes

weLL... i muz say this 4 ladies are smart and well.. maybe to me they are juz so marvellous anD hmm... in search for the 2 Ls huh.. wondering wat they are?

First L: LOVE
Second L: LABELS

but aren't they true? ahhaHZ REALISTC RITE!

buT thats not e main thing ba.
froM this show.. i have learn that their friendships bond are pretty strong.. =D aren't they? For those who have watched.. u will knoW.. OH GOSH for 20 yrs or even more? iT thus dawns on me.. hMM.. will i have this kinda of friends? that will LAST?
weLL.. recently had some dispute between all my close friends but deep down, i treasure them and dun wanna lose them. =)
They are none other than- Steve, Ivan, David, Shu De, Dhaslie, Henry.. =) weLL without them.. i would never know what to do.. and i do hope that our friendship do last =D yuP loVe hanging out wif U guyS and well see u really SOON..

The next thing is on LOVE. weLL e show juz bringS me to Carrie Bradshaw's shoes. =x When she was out of love, she was so dejected and upset... Being hurt so much and all.. and her face was so haggard.. lookS totallY gone.. but she revived. Upon seeing her in that haggard looK.. hahaZ.. i seems to be having that now.. =x LOL.. used to have the cute boyish look in me is gonE. xD

buT well i will try to gain it back.. =D and hmM.. thru this show, Love is well.. err.. how should i describe? buT... juz wait instead of seeking? whO does remain really happy in a relationship always? of course there are SOME! but.. for some, being a serial monogamist is hard too..
takE Samantha for example.. i believed she had really done a good job.. =) a toast to her.. =D and well.. too much lessons to be learnt frm this show.. =)

SO BETTER WATCH!

and well once again.. did i leave out anything? hMM hopE i did not.. and well niteZ to u guyS.
and to aLL my 2 didi(s) hugS u..=)

2008-06-22T01:05:00.001+08:00

First Sunset

Second SunseT

Last Pic

waS juz looking throUgh some of my old piCs.. hmm found some of my favourite pics which i took.. =D nicE mah?

IF u were to ask me, my choice, i would prefer sunset more than sunrise. I like sunset alot and i do not know why.. ahahZ.. juz a preference? But well.. sunset marks e end of the day.. =) perhapS is all that i wan. A day to end faster?

haiZ... why has thingS come to such ending...? I m really tired.. can some1 juz savE me frm thiS world of darknesS that I am in? aLL thaT has happeN is realLy drainiNg me alot.. =( anD i cannoT do anythinG at aLL.. perhaPS yesH. SIT DwN and enjoY the SHOW!

weLL.. is enuFF.. duN reaLLy knoW wat to saY.. but i miSS u..mummY

2008-06-11T01:23:00.002+08:00

guyS... i m back wif this posT which i finds interesting... so will share it wif u guyS... and for some ppl out there... hope u are able to catch the message i m conveying

When we meet the right person to love
When we're at the right place at the right time
That's chance
When you meet someone you're attracted to
That's not a choice
That's chance
Being caught up in a moment (and there are a lot of couples who get together because of this)
Is not a choice
That's also a chance

Difference is what happens afterwards.
When you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his/her faults, that's not a chance
That's a choice
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what
That's a choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's a CHOICE.

Infatuation, crushes, and attraction come to us by chance
But true love that lasts is truly a choice
A choice that we MAKE.

Regarding soulmates
There's a beautiful quote that I believe is so true about this
| Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen |
I believe that soulmates do exist, that there is truly someone made for you
However it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not

We may meet our soulmates by CHANCE
But loving and staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love
But to learn how to love an IMPERFECT person PERFECTLY

and foR those ard me.. thx for being there for me when i need u guyS.... thanK you to all my buddies and didi(s)... =D would not have known wat to do without u guys helping....

2008-02-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

thE prooF of existenC3
lonG time have not come in here le.. and u guys tot this blog must be dead?? =)
weLL it has once again be3N revived.... and it's alivE

montHs have past... and wonder how are you guyS? for me.. been busY wif schooL anD some stupid stuFF..
for schoOl.. because is my last sem in sch le... and i gt 2 projecTS, Event Catering and Monitor Income and Expense... so kinda busY

buT weLL i will go back to churcH one of these dayS.. =) so hope to see u guys there again??

and welLL about the prooF of existencE? u guyS must be wondering wat is it all about??
weLL.. u guys go figure it out and tag in the answer?? hehe... but it existed and AMEN father!

still got wat to wirte? =(
hMM.. yuP..
to the didi out there.. thankS for being therE for me... lovE u brO

2007-12-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

hi ppL oncE agaIn... =) back to see how's everyone doin.. or is it u guys wannA know how i m doin?? =) so weLL here goeS my storY...

hMM.. today juz went to watch the movie, Alvin and The ChipmunkS. =) kinda prettY cute and humourous show i would say.. (=

back to the life ba.. today in e day time, i was rather happy and high, once again... when night falls, things just dun go on the way it is.. people who knowS me.. weLL.. i m one who has mood swing.. and it juz need e right perosn to take control of it.. but no one can... e person has not appear in my life...it once appear but it was gone... pining on to the hope that it will appear one day again.

sounDs so fantasy... but it is the truth... hoping that the person will come back into my life... ONE DAY... juz seemS so sad.. why after U left, so much changes happen in my life??
is my life predestined to be like that?
mum pass away, leaving me alone in this world...with no one to take carE of me... and
i realLy neeD ur care and concerN...
Ur worDs though is not on ur death bed, but is still embedded in my heart.
Will e right person appeaR to take care of me? i wiLL be waitinG...

I have no one to turn to in my family... do I?? all i hav is juz me, myself and I... dad is busy with work, bad termS wif my older bro.. and no 1 le...
weLL but thaT'S lifE rite peoplE??

so much thinGS has change in this year, where is Baldovin and what is he doiN actually?? can some1 juz guide him back to the right path and tell him wats right and wrong.. a yeaR is juz gone like thaT... with no achievementS... but have gain lots of experience... till he is sick and tired of some stuff... haiZ.. ='(

this is where he wiLL stop and dunnO wat else to write.. mind is all in a meSS.. but he wiLL sort thingS out one daY.. =) take caRE people.

arGH... where is the sun?? Grr... i wanna sun tan leh... nO sun at all... i wanna be a sunshine boY.. lol... sounDs like a sun worshipper... but is true... always i see the sun.. will sure run le.. keke... hahaHZ
one more thinG... christmaS is here. =D i wan prezzie.. hehe... but i dun think will people will give me de lor.. =( sad... but still

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU... =)

sad and DepreSS =(

2007-11-27T17:01:00.000+08:00

hI guYS.. i m sure u hav heard about the 5 dragonboaters ba?? deaD in cambodia.. haiZ.
though i do noT know them but i understand how it feels to lose some 1 close... =( it juz brings back lots of memories for me.. *sad* )'=

For Jeremy, he is my kor de good pal lai de.. haiZ nice guy to know
For Reuben... my best friend de friend lai de... a good model too...

Life is juz so unpredicatable.. and short don't u think so??

weLL why has it affected me though i do not know them? welL, due to the fact that it reminds me of my late cousin too. He oso pass away at e age of 23 yrs old too... To me, he is some1 close to me. he had took care of me since i was young and play with me too.. and when he juz left this world abruptly, we was all shocked. Juz like how e dragonboaters die, we do not hav a chance to bid them goodbye...

pluS the fact that i not only lose my cousin.. but 1 yr later, my mum was gone as well... a heartbreaking story to hear.. but well.. we must still live well and they are now juz part of the memories in us.. which will never be forgotten.

deeP down in our heart and along the years passed, will they be forgotten by us?
Do they even exist?
the answer is YES. but not for our generation.. but the future generation.

I shall end here for the grief, sadness and sorrow.

for now.. exam is coming for me... is juz nexT week and i m preparing it liao

lastly a prayer to end

Father Lord, i pray that e dead souls will rest in peace and that they will enjoy in e other world with U. father lord i pray that thier families and their friends will be able to stand up and walk again and get over the facT that they are now wif u father =) and theY should be glAD.
Lastly Father i pray for my friends and families for good health, and that they are safe. and for those who r preparing for their exam, i pray that watever they study will come out and oso they will remember their notes...etc
may god BLESSED U,
I pray all these in jesus name, AMEN

BACK!!!

2007-10-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

yoZ guyS i m back... =D miss me mah?? hahahZ

juz to let u guyS know.. i m BACK... how's stuff for evrybody?? hahahZ update me through my chatbox wor... =)
noW... kind busy wif my sch work.. hahahZ damn craZy.

subjecTS in SHATEC now..
- Enlish ( WTF la... is primary sch...de sia....!! -.-)
- F&B operations
- Beverage
- IT

so much work to do la... got projects and assignment to do.. sianZ... damn busy... then miss my church alot... and of course... CLUB... lol...
18 yrs old liao... kinda happy... xD hahahZ can do lots of stuff le. buT... haiZ.. dad is still controlling me very strictly... =( kinda sianZ lor.. wat to do.. i m sometimes to him.. immature.
but anyway.. i m sleepin soON la... damn tired today... went to swim and tanned today then go gym... now dead...tireD.. so i m goin off.. see ya till next time... =D

isn'T this interestinG??

2007-10-05T10:51:00.000+08:00

|| Far in the light, I can see it
In every scene of the night
A tiny feather of love

I gotta go
Destiny never finds the way for me, my love

Even in the night I see your face, in the dark
So I never lose my way to you
I never close my heart
The light is always there

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
Now we've come so far from love memory
Though your smile has gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we are one, for love melody
The future arrives with your love

Willing to go to the place
Where you never need to cry
I'll take you there

Willing to find an answer
In all the winding road we have come through

In the heat of summer, cold of winter, I'm here
So you never lose your way to me
Never close your heart
Your light is always here

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
In the shades of hope, in love memory
Though your smile has gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we can hear the love melody
The future still shines, close to you ||

- this whole thinG is very meaningfuL.. =)

A day out...

2007-09-30T19:56:00.001+08:00

Look at it... Haha... Lady dress in red... Now headin to town for dinner wif my 3 lao gong. Woo! Happy manZ.

2007-09-28T11:33:00.001+08:00

isn'T this clouds nice?? ahhahZ cannot blame me.. i juz love clouds.. how r u peepS?? i muz hav gone mia for so long le... but anyway will keep u guys updatE sooN..
but my blog will not be dead ahahhZ juz need time to revive!!!

2007-07-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

hI... i m back to update u again...=) recently damn busy wif my joB la.. quitE tiring i can say but do enjoy it la... jahahhaZ suddenly at a loss wat to writE...

but my work place is kinda fun but scary la.. coz i dunno who is out there to backstab me la... kinda scare...loL...

oK..other than that lifE for me is rather boring la...only work and schooL..damn pissed off de..is my sch schedule... ends at 8pm la.. imagine thaT... is so OMG!!!!
and oso due to my work schedule... no time for church and other stuff la...sigH...dman sianZ

OSO...no time for my deaR.. soB... kinda miSS u badly la.. but i will make time for u..and hope that ur schedule oso not so tight la..coz i know u r busy wif ur stuff oso.... lookin forward to thurS... =D

DunnO wat to write le...see ya...

2007-06-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

heheh...onCe agaiN i m bacK...=) to update u abt mE...

For me...hMM... u guyS muz be wondering..how come i m now seldoM onlinE?? coZ i havE started worK le.. Started on wed, 27 junE....=) hehe...wonder where is it hoR?

Friends At Jelita Pte Ltd
293 Holland Road

hahahZ...those who study NP or SIM...should know where is it...coz is near ur sch...=P
is at Holland Rd, Jelita, Cold Storage BulidinG...=)

anywaY...is already my third day of work le...as each day pass...i more and more stress la...coz need remember lotS of stuff... such as how e food is cook, The plating method and oso wat ingredients goes wif each... DamN stress sia...
BuT i will jia yoU...=) and ya...most important... my restaurant serve mediterrean cuisine la..

hMM... today...really stress la...i m memorizing lotS of recepie today la... then oso scald myself alot.. no hand still kinda pain lor...soB...heheh...

noW looKIng forwarD to SUNDAY... hahahZ is my OFF DAY yEA...muhahahHZ damn happY sia... lolX..sounds crazY sia..

LorD i pray thaT i will have a blessed night and oso that u will giv me strength and energY for me to worK... Father lorD i oso pray that u will grant my family safety and gooD healtH. I oso pray that u will giv me the wisdom, and intelligence to do my stuff properly, and that most of all hav a nice anD PATIENT boss...=) i pray all this in jesus NAME...AMEN!!!

NiteZ...guyS....=)

2007-06-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

thiS feW dayS kinda bored.. coz nothing to dO... everYonE is busy doiN theiR own stUFf... for me, my exaMs are juz over... so is kinda a break for us noW..no sch.. but those who gt work, still need to work la... then pluS me no joB.. wat to do?? sigH..

And OsO due to the fact, no one call me out..me damn BOreD and thuS lotS of thoughts were in my minD again.. well i regarding lovE lif3 lor.. wat to do....sigH all thE gooD peePs are all gonE.. nonE is gooD..

ok..letS talk abt yesterdaY... ahahAHZ sunday i mean...=)

I was so bored at home till...gt no choice, went to attend church loR... attend e thirD service, then hang arounD till last service... after thaT went to hav dinner wif my new CG lor.. NPCG

DurinG dinnER, finaLLY started to knOW more ppL in my CG.. kindA wierd la u guyS will think coz i changE my CG thIS yr de...buT all along i nvr attend.. kindA bad..lol...=D

thEn afteR dinnEr, NPCG left liaO... so i went to my oLD CG, TPCG.. hahahZ and went homE wif theM... and i was glaD coz i saw some1 i nvr seen for so lonG... which is Wei Yi... my er jiE.. ahahahaZ kinda miss her lotS...

so wheN she appeaR.. i immediately shouted her name, and giv her a hug manZ...ahahHZ
reallY got lotS of stuff.. anYway writE till here ba...

lOOKinG towards fridaY de BBQ... ahhaHZ by NPCG...=D

2007-06-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

OncE agaIn.. i m back herE to update u...=) think no onE really care whether i update my blog not... RIGHT?? hahahZ

Hmm recently...kinda stress again la... guEss coz i m growing up la, and oso starting to matuRe liaO lor... =D hahahHZ.

But anYway..recently busy wif exams, schooL matter and oSo my project la... sianZ... damN suckY la...gRr.. BuT anywaY let me update u guys about today stuff ba...=)

Today is saturday... and ON TUES...i need to hand in my project and oso need send for printing liaO..but my menu not donE.. aRGH!!! damN it... TheN thanK goD my baobei didi (boBo) is willINg to helP me wiTh the design and stuFF la...
P.S do not ask me y i call him baobei didi... but is wat we call each other la...=)

So i actuallY travel aLL the waY to bedok and to his place to seek help lor... and in the bus.. there are lots of thoughts in my minD... likE during mY secondary sch liFE untiL now.. i have gt crush on ppl..then being in and out of loVE, during my mum pass away until now...etC lor... so many stuff... ahahZ peoplE will say i m crazy la.. thinking of so much stuFf thaT has past liao.. and oso my church friendS.. and not forgetting people who has came across and into my liFE...

bUt let me sEe...who has came across and into my liFe sinCe i was in secondary sch..
- Dale
- QionG Hui
- Aloysius Lin
- Adeline Tan & Adeline Yong
- Jin Zhao
- Daryl; Yong Ming
- Irene
- Daniel Ow
- Hong Wei
- Mike; Bob korkor
- Wei Bin korkor
- George korkor
- Bobo didi
- Yong Zhen
- Kenny korkor.....and many moRe...too Much to say le...
- Tat Meng auntiE
- and oF courSe my MummY..

But one thinG...for sure is... I m thankful for all these people coz i haVe learnt lots of stuff from u guyS be it young or old... u guyS hav guided me and tell me wats wrong and right...makin me learnt and oso whEn i m dowN..u guyS are there to cheer me up...
TodaY i gueSS, i will Be my true self le ba.and oso learnt to put things down and oso to take up the responsibilities...=)

meaNwhilE u guyS take caRE k...=) loVe u all GuyS...=D

2007-05-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

todaY... siGh.. a day of sadness i think. thiS whoLE weeK i do not realy enjoY.. kinda so many people nagging at me manZ.. siGH.

finaLLy at o640 today, thaT person finally replied me... kinda happy and glad at the same time though i saw the msg ard 7+ la... the person musT be busY, i tell myself that i musT trusT that persoN & not wonder my thoughts...

So today whole day at home was like sleeping the whole daY sia.. frm 1250 to 1650 manZ.. lolX was suppose to go out for Care group... but end up did nt wan to attend... sorry guyS... but for now me dun wanna attend CG yet...

Then oso today...is so marvellous..i whole day didn't really ate manZ... scare tml gt gastric la..
juZ now went out wif Jeremy korkor for dinner, suppose to meet at city hall but ended up at clarke quaY... so went to ate jap food again..
theN me wanted to go home de la... but korkor keep pulling me to go clubbing wif him..but i insisted on goin home la..so....=)

Overall today.. or should i say this week..i m kinda upset over my lifE and oso other stuff as weLL.. i do not know who to turn to... and oso abt something personal abt me la..( some ppl will knoW what i m refering la) is like...i wondering... did i make a wrong step by steping into that circle...?? i guess i did..but i cannot turn bacK.. i am stuck le... oso many people seems to be toucing on that topic...when they know nth abt me...but they juz touch on e topiC... i mkinda like guilty..but do not know what to do...

Then my grandmother oso..siGh..keep pressurizing me saying about my mum pass away le..so is like muz staY home more to eat, take care of bro...blah blaH.. damn kinda irritating la.. i really cannot take the pressure. i wanna be juz a normal teen..do not wan such responsibilities. sigH..
whaT shall i do??? i m so stress....juz feel like ending everything.
kinda worried for that person, my liFE...everything... i m so stress... is like i worry for that person whether has any feeling for me...etc la. but george korkor and mike korkor has been comforting these few nights la.. say do noT think so much..but i juz cannot bring myself to do thaT... sigH what to do?? soB...

Want evrything to enD...including my lifE??? maybe...=( sobS

2007-05-18T00:56:00.000+08:00

hMm... recently too much stuff happeN.. don't really knoW whats happeninG.. and also rathEr confuse about some stuff..sigH...

On monday and tuesday.. my class de Auntie Tat Meng, nagginG at me la.. coZ me liKE seems to be losT or maybe should i say she is worried for me lor..

On monday, i brought my laptop to schooL mah.. theN she is likE so shock.. woW..thinking where do i get so much money to buY my laptop la...coz she knoW my family situation de ma.. then after sch when i took a lift from her wif my 2 other classmate.. they were like where i get my laptop..
i say.. my friend bought it for me.
Her reply was, which friend so good?? got this kind of friends de meh??
i was like...thinking in my heart.. weLL i myself knoW which friends i have la.. and not to worry about mixing the wrong friends la.
theN she keep probinG.. kinda irritatinG la.. say wat beware of this kind of friends as they may be up to no gooD.. theN e otheR classmate oso start nagginG at me.. weLL i knOW what i am doin la..soB...

On tuesday, worse... coz i receive a letter from my shatec regarding about my attachment on monday evening, actually suppose to see the admin on monday morning, but coz got it in evening, so well i went back to them on tuesday morning lor.. they say will schedulE for an appointment for me...then in the afternoon, in the midst of the practical, they called and say my appt is on thurS, 10a.m.. i was like...wtf, anD shoot them say.. whY can't u arrange it eitehr on monday or tuesday meh??? u think i so free to come dwn juz for this stupid thing?? grr... damN pissed off.

On wednesday leH.. whole day was actuallY waitinG for evening coz goin out wif my friend... for dinnEr la.. but welL he was good enough to come down to yishUn afteR his work la. suppose to eat diNnEr de la.. but ended up hOR..wenT to watcH movie: Blades of GlorY.
haaHHZ that shOW was damN funnY la..=) enjoY the show aloT.. and weLL if u happen to read thIS.... thX alot for everything, but i cannot accept one thing la. coz u knoW i m waitinG for someonE. ya... reallY sorrY about iT...

Today neH...damn sad la... coz gotta wake up in the morninG...and go down to shatec to settle the stuff... wasting of time lor.. go dowN 15 mins then go home liaO...waste my transport fare sia...gRR!! Then when came homE.. did the usual stuff, go online and...etc lor..
ahaahZ theN cz tday weather was gooD started to doze off liao lor... lol. so actually went to beD..
theN dun knoW wat time.. my didi, aloy called ask me to go watch movie..i was like...blur blur like thaT la..but of course wif our da ge, Daryl... yuP... we are the B.A.D... hahahZ
bUt today movie was rather borInG la..i felt... kinda sianZ.. but weLL coz i went out wif my 2 bros... so of course i enjoyed..=) tHX alot bro....
but deeeP down in my heart, i m actuallY missing, worrying about some1 la... coz until now thursday liao...still no replY la.. kinda worried for ...... ya.. siGh.. but my wei bin korkor and george korkor ask me to believe in that person and not worry so much la... but i cannot stop worrying until i gt an sms lor.. siGH...until now me still waiting like an idiot like tt..siGh.. I miss yoU....=(

Today up to here ba... i will try to take care of myself de...=) ya...but still need u guys de care and concern de la..coz u know me rather unstable..coz gt mood swings de...hehe sorrY

2007-05-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

todaY...finally went back to fullerton to do my clearance...ahahZ * heavE a sigN of relief*
Then after thaT...wenT to orchard to do some stuff wif my classmate, yong kong.. ahhahZ coz he was nice enough to accompany me to Fullerton lor..but anyway..we went down to orchard to get some of our project done la.. hahahZ then after thaT go kia kia...theN take train bacK le..=)

But me did nt went home la.. i actually went to et my hair cut at my usual salon and of course.. my favourite hairstylist lor.=) really glAd to knOW hiM....

Hmm...me now leh..don't knoW whY..kindA feeling dowN la.. actually hopE to see some1 online.. but he did not..i do not knOW y..but is like..he knOW wats happening to me la. so i confide in him most of the time..so when he's nt online, i was kinda more sad... he is a great bro of minE.. i would say...can surely depend on him de... perhaps he is really there for me...when i reallY need a friend by my sidE...

k..back to my maIn topic..
i seriously do not knoW y m i feeling so sad.. but i guess i do not hav the confidence in relationship ba...i do havE e fear myself..but i do not knOW wat to do.. kInda end up hurt in e enD la.. but what to dO??? i M another sentimental creature...=) wif to much feelings and emotions liao.. hahahZ but noW my bro is coming for me..so i gotta stop here. and see ya..

2007-05-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

TodaY..was a great daY for me..i do not knOW why. buT i enjoyed myself.. =)
I actuallY wne to to church today... haahZ noT wif my CG but wif one of my kor, called Jeremy.. hahahZ..a nice bro and caring..i will saY..but abit to chor lor lai thaT hahahZ....but overall, he is ok..=) We attended the fourth service together.. and was supposed to meet at 2..but.. hor.. ME ar...recently meet ppl de hor.. suRe will laTE de..so really sorrY ar. but i arrived at 1425.

I actually arrived at Khatib MRT at dun kw wat time la..but miss one of the train...coz was in shop & safe..hahahZ so is like next train is 7 mins.. So i gotta wait lor.. then when TraiN arrived, i was so shocked sia.. i heard so many ppl calling my name.. They are my cca and YMM de friends sia..hahahZ

Then me and my kor actually went to marina to eat. aTE japanesE fooD... kinda sick la..coz yesterday juZ ate korean fooD..lolX but nVm la. eaing is a jOY..

After servicE neh...hang out wif my kor awhile more.. he go home le...sO me went to find my EX caregrouP ppl..ahhahZ kinda miss them sia.. so went to chILL out wif theM and after thaT went home wif theM...=)

But aloNG e way to city hall mrt.. actually had some chat wif linda and jeremy( my CG de..nt my kor) and joeY.. is like i seriously miss them alot and is liKE do not really like my present NPCG..
though i did nt attend b4 la.. ahhahZ but i still like TP ppl alot.. miss e fun that we hav manZ.. so is likE i may wanna request to change my caregroup back to TP de..see if they allow not..coz i realy miss them sia.. God will make that possible for me...i believe.. and AMEN!!!

ThAT's ALL manZ...see ya tilL next tIme...=)

2007-05-03T12:22:00.000+08:00

TIme to blOG lo...if not peoplE will scold me ltr again...ahahaHZ. Recently i m so lazy to updatE my blog sia..lolX...but guess still must update no matter wat righT..RofL..

Recently, i am likE damN bored coz me no work mah..then everyday at homE rotting la. hahaHZ daMn bloOdY boreD..

alsO..me recenlty lots of stUFf happening sia.. hp got confiscated for a few days..but is kinda like no liFe lor..guEss at this generation, it is difficult to not survive without hp sia... agREE mah??
TheN my loVE liFE leh... kinDa stress a lot..i dun knoW is it my faulT or what..i guEss is me bA.. i reaLLy don'T know whY.. but i reallY loVE U....and aT the samE timE feel so losT...

IF yoU happen to be reading thiS.. deaAr~~ i m sorry for presurizinG u so mucH. thanKS for being honest that u r noT readY for relationshIp or maybe is it u are not ready to accept me?? i do not knOW but will wait patiently for u... k?? dO not be so stressed Up..

NOw i m LikE listening to radiO onlinE... and theN dun kW wat to do leh..will any kind souls call me out mah?? hmm..guess no one lor..
bUT sometimes when i m bored to deaTH..at least gt a gooD friend of mINE.is always nice to accompany me ouT.. no matter when i call..
* to ThaT person...tHX for everythinG..*

I thinK will stop here for now...SEE YA tiLL NEXT timE... bYEbyE..=)

2007-04-19T03:09:00.000+08:00

hahaZ...so loNG nvr uodate my bloG.. u Guys must be wondering...Whre aM I or is iT i goNE MIA agaiN?? LoL.. u GUYs are wroNG.. juZ that recently Too buSy wif sOEM stUFf le..=)

OK.. firST abOUT my LifE.. i haVE nothing Much to saY but SHATEC realLy suCKS biG tiME... i jUZ dun understanD wat thE heck are they doin manZ.. >.<" Damn Pissed off by theM la..
Then oso neh.. i hAve resigN frOm Fullerton Hotel le..i am seeking a new place for attachment.. By riGHt ar..should have been terminated bY Fullerton..BUt my managers know that if they terminate me, i will not be able to continue my studiEs..so tehy actually help me and did not terminate me.. Unlike SHATEC..they ask Fullerton to terminate me la..is like..WTF!!! so That they got a reason to expelled me out of scHOOl la..but now will see abOUT thaT..

Hmm... Now.. soMEtiMEs reAlly sIT dowN and thinK.. whaT is LOVE?? and hOW i wiSh i haVE one manZ.. THEn on my stUDIEs leh...abIT siaNZ la...

wHat to wriTE neH...loLX.. suDDenLY don'T kNow whaT to wriTe.. loLX.. ok.. See ya gUYS.. wiLL stop heRe le.. taLking on PHone wiF my Friend..see YA...

2007-04-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

So LonG nvR BloG liaO le sia..siGh..
ReasoN...BecaUSe of mY idIotiC korkor manZ..hate hIM toNNES.. okAY enUFF of hIm.. receNtly ar...quiTe EnjOy liFE but alSO sad at timeS la... Family probs..so manZy proB.. esp my workplace.. feeL like changing my workplace sia..but oso at a losT..

YestErday..weNT out wif aloYsiUS..to watch movie coz me nTh to do mah... >.< then actually wanted to watcH T.M.N.T de.. but end up dun hav sia.. so me watch MEeT tHe RobinsonS again though i watch it le.. but coz e movie is nice and touching.. i Guess it is touching coz when e mum abandon Louis... ya..is so touching.. esp wif teh music as sound effect.. wow..reallY sad sia.. waT to do.. hahahZ but anyway..me dun kw whaT to wriTE sia..coz too much thing happen to me la.. loTS of tOnnES of it sia..neveR endiNG de..

bUT do take carE guYS..=) yea.. will miSS u hehe...

2007-04-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Is it a day of joY tomorrOW night?? stranGE..whY is it not day but niGht??? because in the day tiME..i will show u thE faKE me.. aND wheN niGHt falLs. i M juz anotheR loNeLy and pathetIC souL..

It has been On for one monTh le... i don;t knOW how to pUT it..but bascially i am juz hav thIS lonely feeling when niGht falLS and wiLL feeL likE dyING and woULD be best to di3... is it truE?? i am nOT so suRe y it is HappenIng to me..but..siGh

PerhapS recently keeP getting HurT...shpULD i leave this world and jOIn my mum?? or the quEstioN is.. will i enjoy tHere?? i am reallY confused...aT a loSS..

cAn someone be there for me?? i wan u..bUT u juZ dun appeaR..i dun wanna get hurt anyMore...i am afraid.. ShoulD i get bacK into my hidinG place?? haiZ..i m reaLLy depresseD manZ...dun kw wat to do and wat to do neXt..as when daytimes fallS..i m another person which is tHE cheerfuL me tt u wiLL see and when nIGht faLLS..i m another guY.. perhaps is true.. my darK side is cOming out le..

One securitY guarD once saiD thaT i tenD to bottle uP stuFF.. he juz loOK at my handwriting and able to teLL..i Guess is trUE...thatS whY wehn nightS fall...i m juZ a different guy but thaT will onLy happen when i m alone or wiF only A FRIEND.. when in large grouP..is still e daytime me... siGh...

2007-03-27T12:25:00.000+08:00

PaisEh..yeterday could nt updatE my blOg...coZ coulD not even go interneT sia..siaNZ
wEll..ytD was a PreTTy siaNz daY for me loR..roTting aT hoME..then nothng to do..
aCtually waiting for a some 1 to ask me put..but tt persoN so buSy..then is like..i m like an idiot waiting..
But in tHE EvevNING..went out wiF this Nicholas... then is like he meet his friend, Arthur. but for me leh.. daMN sianZ.. coZ is liKE theY tend to neglecT me lor..siGh... swEaR nvr to go oUT wif theM again sia... daMN bORed la.. U wiLL knoW e feeLIngs la..if u ever experiencE beforE... theN they wenT shoPPing browisng stuFf...me juz followed theM lor..

Then reacH home ard 11+...after thaT...go bath then watch My date wif a Vampire III..tehN after thaT go sLP le... abit siaNZ hor?? ahahHZ..

FoR noW..me now eatIng my chicken Rice.. then will go abth after thaT and will thEn hmm.. meeT my frienD aT PS ard 1415... so see ya guYS...

EnjoY ur dAy aheaD... GOd Bless...=)

2007-03-25T17:47:00.000+08:00

TodaY is sunday..hahahZ mY lasT two daYs of breaK le..sianZ.. i Don't wannA worK..
i wanNa go out and plaY and oso..to experience tHE nighT liFE..i waNt those..sianZ.. hMm letS talk abtouT ytd niGht aND today ba..

~~~~~~~~~YesterDay nighT~~~~~~~~~~
hMM..yesterday after updating my blog le..wenT to change my clothes..then go out to meet my korkor- George... then we went oto citylink to eat cheesecake...woW..is so marvellous manZ.. Juz lovE e tasTe of iT.. hahahZ. Then after thaT walk back to MRT..to meet his friend... Xiao Fong...Then we went to catch a movIE at shaw...Mr Bean's Holiday...=) fuNny sia.. ahahhZ. afTEr movIE end..we went to esplanade to hav our dinner and went to marina square to plaY pooL...
LolX, initially me dun kw hoW to plaY de.. YTd giv my korkor teach..me now knoW how to plaY le...ahhahHZ so pasieh la..play until we miss our last train..then reach home ard 1+..coz take Night Rider...homE..theN went to bath..uSe com awile and go to beD le..

~~~~~~~~~~ TodaY ~~~~~~~~~
WosH...finaLLy get to go church le manZ..miss my sunday service alot sia.. always wanted to go..but stupiD work la..gRR can die de la..if worK on sundaYS...coZ of de daMn SundaY BRUNCH!!! suX sia..can worK till die de.. bUt basicaLLy..i went to church wiTh my mum de colleague and her daughter and her daughter de friEnd....=) after thaT went to havE lunCh and went to thE Dog FaiR..hahahZ so manY cuTE and smaLL doggieS sia.. hahahZ wisH i own one too...
After thE doG faiR...went to cold storage and buy flower tehn go visit my mum at mandaI... then comE home le lOR...

Hmm wondering what's for diNNEr le siA...dun kw able to eat or not...sianZ...hahahZ unTil theN see ya guyS.. :) hehe..miss tt some 1 aloT... =p

anotHEr evenT..hahahZ hMM..may it be lonG or shoRT??

2007-03-24T14:33:00.000+08:00

hey guYS..once agin i am BacK wif all u manZ..
i know i have nt been updating my bloG la..reallY paiSEh la..hehe

RecentLy lot of thing s happening la.. i myself dun kw what to do..
i know u guyS will sure ask me turn to jesus christ righT..haahZ i wish i coulD but could not la.. too much hurtful stuFF le..hMM..where sHall i start?? oso dun reallY know..

Since January until noW..nearly 4 Months le...i hav nt updated it or tell u guyS abOut my life..unLEss people ask me la.. tHeN...i will teLl but nt all oso lA.coz there are somethings are to be meanT onlY for some ppL to know..

And I m takIng Diploma In Culinary....
Ok..foR u peepS out there..i m currently doin my internship wiTh thE Fullerton Hotel la...
but it suX alot working in there...stressful..etc la.. and alSO e staff treatmenT suX alot... verY bad de..a glamorous hotel on the outside...but INSIDE...siGh...hOPeless and SpeecHless.. siGh..

Then my schedule is actualLY Monday and Tues is SurE sch...then weD- sunDay...is work..but one day off...and most probably is always on a wed...hahahZ

aBout my liFe..RecentLY not eating la.. one day can only take one meal sia... zhaI righT..hahahZ. Don'T knoW..whY..but i promise thaT i wIll take gooD carE of myself de...ok?? hMM..i reallY appreciate those who rteally carE for me...thanK You...
Then alSo i goT a medicaL problem le la....Which is my eyes is degeneratiNG lor.. some of u guys have heard aboUt me le..coz i tell u liaO le..=) but for some who don't knOW..my eyes is basicaLLyageinG faster than me By around 4-5X la..but whaT can i do?? hMM..bascially nothIng..sianZ... aahhZ thInk thats about all la..maybe ltr update more..buT for noW..

~~~~~~ Take CarE ~~~~~~~

Today is InternaTionaL CHEF DAY!!

2006-10-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

ahahHZ..so long never update liao..ahahHZ sure giv people scold de..
Today is a day of fun..i hope..hahAHZ
Anyway.. my life in SHATEC is fun la..hahAHZ done lots of cooKing then also getting along well with my classmates... all uncles and aunties, and oso some youngsters la.. Then gt a uncle around 55 yrs old de..damN funny sia..haahZ

hehE..should i put the same tiTle?? lolX- updating timE.??

2006-09-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

yeA..schOOl is once again starTing foR me..
I have learnt a lesson in NAFA..do not procratstinate...if not i will suFFer de..=)

Hmm..one more day lefT to rest le...wonder how will the day tomorrow be like??

{[-_~~__~~TODAY~~__~~_-]}

HahZ...today lots of things happen la..pretty happy loR..
But something juz cannot be shared de woR..hhaZ coz is very personal de lor..hahAHZ

But still one thing..i enjoy goin out wif some1 wor..hahahZ is really a coincidence..is it FATE?

Or is it Father loRd..u hav answered my prayer?? hahahZ but is an enjoyable nite i havE.. although tireD..but stiLL..i love my LOVELY STEAD ALOT.. mISS u tonnes..tHat will nevEr.. u are really sweeT..i thanK u for all youR effortS..done.. muackS..hahahZ so mushY..hehe..

duN kw wat to write liao leh..only knoW..i very tired ..gonnA resT soon.. nitEZ.. zzZZ

-see u soon-

updatING timE..i M SO BLESSED!!!!

2006-09-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

hahhaZ.. guess u all knoW thaT i seldom update my blog de..

until someone nag at me..lolX..then i will update de..lolX..sorrY la.. i am really bless.. reallY..i m not kidding u knoW.. xD

Ok..weLL i juz pass my birthday...recently hahhAZ.. then i only celebrated my birthday yesterday after campus servicE.. althougH it was belated, but i m really happy to celebrate wif my churcH friendS..
But First let me introduce my caregroup.. we r FRM TPCG B theY inCLude:-

Jonhathan (our Shepard)

Shawn
Joey
Immanuel
Gideon
Baldovin
* Got two more guys..but i forgot their names le.. SORRY.. =)
Sheryl
Sharon
Sandra
Grace
Esther
Linda
Xiao Hui
Wei Yi (formerly..i think)

Haaz..they roX manZ..juz love to be with them..but there are also other church friends la..hhahZ
ok...recentl i feel really bless la..i guess is really god to perform miracles..and oso my mum blessingS..ahahHz ytd dureing the campus..i did saw the LORD..and oso rite beside him was my mum...was it god's grace?? hee.. nt too sure..but i know my mum is watching over us.. esp u, our heavenly Father...AMEN!! btW..thx for all ur present from u guys.. i love it manZ..is really cooL.. esP 2 person de..is so special...although is simple..but it comes wif a letter/notes.. i hope u know who i m refering to wor..ahahahZ i dun wan to say who la..but tt 2 fellows better know..

GUESS IS thatS aLL le..lolX =)

dun KnoW wat title..

2006-08-09T12:36:00.000+08:00

Hmm,time foR me to updatE my bloG again.. iF not people scOld agaiN..hahAHZ

It has been weeKS my mum pass awaY le... she Called Home on 27-7-2006.. at abt 1430.. tHen..my life is stiLL normal..coz i shouldn't brood over it too much..

OthEr than thaT.. I oso gt new things to say.. i have madE a group/buncH of godlY friends...ahahZ they are juz great...frm my church de..they are immanuel bro, joey bro, gideon bro...jon...and shwaN...hahAHZ. sisteR includes grace, esther, linda, wei yi,sheryl, sharon...all frm my CG..hahahZ hope i dun miss out anyone ba..

Since after my mum pass awaY, i have been attending church, mixing around with my church people..and getting over the death of my mum..although is touGh..but still i miss heR badly.. sOmetimes when i am alone myself, i will miss her tiLL i cry..

noW...mosT of my time is mostly spent in sch work, church stuff and of coursE the housekeeping... I am the housekeePeR..=) To those out there..do noT worrY for me k.. esp my deaR...i know u show concerN for me..yea..i loVe u verY mucH...hahahZ..MUACKS
dun KW wat to wriTe le leh...loLX.. juz wanna leT u gUys knoW.. i m Fine.. kk.. take care all my brothers, sisters, and my firends and of course my deaRdeaR...^_^

2006-07-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hey...is me..i m back to update my blog..
Today is a day i enjoy manZ...i did nt went to school today..and i went to Vanessa's place to do my work...and ya.. I muz thank her for her meal...is daMN DELICIOUS

Thank u Vanessa...i have learNT to cook tt too le...

anD...today ya... I went her hse to do my work...etc la.
dun know wat to write le leh...only kw..i m damn stress...frm CCA...School and of course...Family...

2006-07-11T15:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm...I juz updated my bogskin..and oso since alot of my friends ask me to update it... ok..
Recently too busy le.. Sorry if i did not update my blog... HAve been ask to update it...ya
Pretty sorry about it la..

Ok.. recently...i have been skipping school and i feel tt my attendance is really failing sia...lol. hopefully i do not have to retake any subject sia...if not i will be so DAMN disappointed..
Then the school has so much work...tonnes of it until i cannot cope... i miss my secondary school manZ...

Hmm...Talking about CCA...hahahZ i miss it manZ...i went back only.. Some1 say i was so fierce sia...lolwonder if it is true not.. but i have also lots of things to settle in my CCA... all the plannings and oso a Company T-Shirt design...
yea.. i m given this project...lol
but i will do well in it...i hope so... ya..now gotta do some work le...coz later still got my cca meeting to attend sia... gtg.. Bye

2006-06-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

hmM..long time since i update my bloG...hahahZ
me..now studying in nafA le...tomorrow is the fourth week le...
but there is already lots of internal conflict liao...haiZwat to do??

caN someone juz try to resolve this matter...we are classmates afterall right??

anD alSo...thee are tonnes of homewOrk waiting for me manZ...now is still early...
buT think gonna go caLL my stead le then sleeP...here i come...

sEE u all next timE...(''.)

th3 power of goD...

2006-05-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

woW...i am really speechless todaY...the power of the Almighty God...loRD JESUS...
he is really a wonderfuL god...marvellous..

Ok...back to the main topiC...i said this because...i seen it with my very own eyes.
lots of wheel-chair bounded people after a prayer from a powerful preacher,
they COULD REALLY WALK...that's sort of ridiculous but is true...

I heard of this from one of my mum's church friend...including Miss Mary,
They say i should bring my mum there to try..because that preacher
has really miraculous healing power..
so I brought my mother there to try lor... since no harm and also there's a hope u see..
I should never give up because all of my friends are helping my mum to pray including my BB officers.

I wanna thank all of you who are supporting...thank u guys...i will try my be3t and not be disheartened...

sorrY...for not updating...hahaHZ.

2006-05-16T17:10:00.000+08:00

hmm, today?? whaT shall i say??
a day filled witH sadness??
or juZ a normaL day..
Well i should say nothing really happen..
but i am actually glad to see one thing..
my mum's condition has improved alot compared to the last few weeks...now she is very awake...rather than the days that she was in her
sub-conscious state...hahahZ...i believe that she will recover... Thank you Jesus...

Recently nvr update my bloG...
coz busy mapling lor...then also with my mum
and my familY...hahaHZ sorry guyS...

yeA...my school is starting sooN liao...
yea..2 more weeks then start le...also i change a new handphone... yeA so happY..hahahZ...
erM...wat to write ar?? lolX next time then update ba... see u byebye....('',)

A baD daY..

2006-04-27T16:15:00.000+08:00

hmmM...wat shall i say?? A gooD day?? or a BAD daY
mY mum condition is gettiNG weakeR as dayS pass..i dun know what To do..
caN some one juz helP me?? i Miss my darling verY much...wannA hug you...

i need someone by my side....i am at a lost..my mum...
cannot walk properlY...siGh....
then juZ now when cooking porridge..cut vegetable...cut till my hand...make my stead and didi so worry..

oH ya...i hav a new god brotheR..his name is Aldwin...extremely caring de didi....then my stead ar...only some know la...

then still gt wat to writE ar??

thiNk is that's All le ba...(",)

2006-04-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

heY guys...juz createD a neW blog..so juz w3lcoM3 to see
but..is nothing new yet...see whether gt time first..heheh...
yuP & welcomE u anytime